I’ve stared into the darkness for what seems to be like forever. And no, I’m not in a dark room or a jail cell.
I’m just way up in the Northern hemisphere. I’m in Finland. Seasonal affective disorder, or simply winter depression, is a real thing that I’m acutely affected by.
The past weeks have gone by in a gray haze. My usually so positive and energetic persona has gotten a blow that it can’t dodge. I’m in such a fog that I’m already speaking of myself in a third person. No amount of vitamin D, sports, friends or meditation seems to be of help.
But today, I saw the sun. I expected it to be triangular. That’s how long it has been. It was round and it was beautiful.
Remember the sun.
Paul Rauno Merisalu November 16th, 2014